David Herbert Lawrence

an evening with Clifford. If he hates your going, it would be no pleasure to

him.'

So! She was being pushed round on the chess-board again.

Clifford hated her going, but it was only because he didn't feel safe

in her absence. Her presence, for some reason, made him feel safe, and free

to do the things he was occupied with. He was a great deal at the pits, and

wrestling in spirit with the almost hopeless problems of getting out his

coal in the most economical fashion and then selling it when he'd got it

out. He knew he ought to find some way of using it, or converting it, so

that he needn't sell it, or needn't have the chagrin of failing to sell it.

But if he made electric power, could he sell that or use it? And to convert

into oil was as yet too costly and too elaborate. To keep industry alive

there must be more industry, like a madness.

It was a madness, and it required a madman to succeed in it. Well, he

was a little mad. Connie thought so. His very intensity and acumen in the

affairs of the pits seemed like a manifestation of madness to her, his very

inspirations were the inspirations of insanity.

He talked to her of all his serious schemes, and she listened in a kind

of wonder, and let him talk. Then the flow ceased, and he turned on the

loudspeaker, and became a blank, while apparently his schemes coiled on

inside him like a kind of dream.

And every night now he played pontoon, that game of the Tommies, with

Mrs Bolton, gambling with sixpences. And again, in the gambling he was gone

in a kind of unconsciousness, or blank intoxication, or intoxication of

blankness, whatever it was. Connie could not bear to see him. But when she

had gone to bed, he and Mrs Bolton would gamble on till two and three in the

morning, safely, and with strange lust. Mrs Bolton was caught in the lust as

much as Clifford: the more so, as she nearly always lost.

She told Connie one day: `I lost twenty-three shillings to Sir Clifford

last night.'

`And did he take the money from you?' asked Connie aghast.

`Why of course, my Lady! Debt of honour!'

Connie expostulated roundly, and was angry with both of them. The

upshot was, Sir Clifford raised Mrs Bolton's wages a hundred a year, and she

could gamble on that. Meanwhile, it seemed to Connie, Clifford was really

going deader.

She told him at length she was leaving on the seventeenth.

`Seventeenth!' he said. `And when will you be back?'

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