David Herbert Lawrence

she would be unaware of Gerald. He had not conquered her yet.

'And what has Halliday to do with it?' he asked, his voice still muted.

She would not answer for some seconds. Then she said, unwillingly:

'He made me go and live with him, and now he wants to throw me over.

And yet he won't let me go to anybody else. He wants me to live hidden

in the country. And then he says I persecute him, that he can't get rid

of me.'

'Doesn't know his own mind,' said Gerald.

'He hasn't any mind, so he can't know it,' she said. 'He waits for what

somebody tells him to do. He never does anything he wants to do

himself--because he doesn't know what he wants. He's a perfect baby.'

Gerald looked at Halliday for some moments, watching the soft, rather

degenerate face of the young man. Its very softness was an attraction;

it was a soft, warm, corrupt nature, into which one might plunge with

gratification.

'But he has no hold over you, has he?' Gerald asked.

'You see he MADE me go and live with him, when I didn't want to,' she

replied. 'He came and cried to me, tears, you never saw so many, saying

HE COULDN'T bear it unless I went back to him. And he wouldn't go away,

he would have stayed for ever. He made me go back. Then every time he

behaves in this fashion. And now I'm going to have a baby, he wants to

give me a hundred pounds and send me into the country, so that he would

never see me nor hear of me again. But I'm not going to do it, after--'

A queer look came over Gerald's face.

'Are you going to have a child?' he asked incredulous. It seemed, to

look at her, impossible, she was so young and so far in spirit from any

child-bearing.

She looked full into his face, and her dark, inchoate eyes had now a

furtive look, and a look of a knowledge of evil, dark and indomitable.

A flame ran secretly to his heart.

'Yes,' she said. 'Isn't it beastly?'

'Don't you want it?' he asked.

'I don't,' she replied emphatically.

'But--' he said, 'how long have you known?'

'Ten weeks,' she said.

All the time she kept her dark, inchoate eyes full upon him. He

remained silent, thinking. Then, switching off and becoming cold, he

asked, in a voice full of considerate kindness:

'Is there anything we can eat here? Is there anything you would like?'

'Yes,' she said, 'I should adore some oysters.'

'All right,' he said. 'We'll have oysters.' And he beckoned to the

waiter.

Halliday took no notice, until the little plate was set before her.

Then suddenly he cried:

'Pussum, you can't eat oysters when you're drinking brandy.'

'What has it go to do with you?' she asked.

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