David Herbert Lawrence

was too fixed in its motion, hers too loose and overwhelming.

But Giovanni was beautiful, gentle, and courtly like Paolo, but warm,

like Maria, ready to flush like a girl with anger or confusion. He stood

straight and tall, and seemed to look into the far distance with his

clear grey eyes. Yet also he could look at one and touch one with his

look, he could meet one. Paolo's blue eyes were like the eyes of the old

spinning-woman, clear and blue and belonging to the mountains, their

vision seemed to end in space, abstract. They reminded me of the eyes of

the eagle, which looks into the sun, and which teaches its young to do

the same, although they are unwilling.

Marco, the second son, was thirteen years old. He was his mother's

favourite, Giovanni loved his father best. But Marco was his mother's

son, with the same brown-gold and red complexion, like a pomegranate,

and coarse black hair, and brown eyes like pebble, like agate, like an

animal's eyes. He had the same broad, bovine figure, though he was only

a boy. But there was some discrepancy in him. He was not unified, he had

no identity.

He was strong and full of animal life, but always aimless, as though his

wits scarcely controlled him. But he loved his mother with a

fundamental, generous, undistinguishing love. Only he always forgot what

he was going to do. He was much more sensitive than Maria, more shy and

reluctant. But his shyness, his sensitiveness only made him more aimless

and awkward, a tiresome clown, slack and uncontrolled, witless. All day

long his mother shouted and shrilled and scolded at him, or hit him

angrily. He did not mind, he came up like a cork, warm and roguish and

curiously appealing. She loved him with a fierce protective love,

grounded on pain. There was such a split, a contrariety in his soul, one

part reacting against the other, which landed him always into trouble.

It was when Marco was a baby that Paolo had gone to America. They were

poor on San Gaudenzio. There were the few olive trees, the grapes, and

the fruit; there was the one cow. But these scarcely made a living.

Neither was Maria content with the real peasants' lot any more, polenta

at midday and vegetable soup in the evening, and no way out, nothing to

look forward to, no future, only this eternal present. She had been in

service, and had eaten bread and drunk coffee, and known the flux and

variable chance of life. She had departed from the old static

conception. She knew what one might be, given a certain chance. The

fixture was the thing she militated against. So Paolo went to America,

to California, into the gold mines.

Maria wanted the future, the endless possibility of life on earth. She

wanted her sons to be freer, to achieve a new plane of living. The

peasant's life was a slave's life, she said, railing against the poverty

and the drudgery. And it was quite true, Paolo and Giovanni worked

twelve and fourteen hours a day at heavy laborious work that would have

broken an Englishman. And there was nothing at the end of it. Yet Paolo

was even happy so. This was the truth to him.

It was the mother who wanted things different. It was she who railed and

railed against the miserable life of the peasants. When we were going to

throw to the fowls a dry broken penny roll of white bread, Maria said,

with anger and shame and resentment in her voice: 'Give it to Marco, he

will eat it. It isn't too dry for him.'

White bread was a treat for them even now, when everybody eats bread.

And Maria Fiori hated it, that bread should be a treat to her children,

when it was the meanest food of all the rest of the world. She was in

opposition to this order. She did not want her sons to be peasants,

fixed and static as posts driven in the earth. She wanted them to be in

the great flux of life in the midst of all possibilities. So she at

length sent Paolo to America to the gold-mines. Meanwhile, she covered

the wall of her parlour with picture postcards, to bring the outer world

of cities and industries into her house.

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