David Herbert Lawrence

on his great day of liberation, when he is accompanied home, drunk but

sinister, by the erect, unswerving, slightly cowed woman. His drunken

terrorizing is only pitiable, she is so obviously the more

constant power.

And this is why the men must go away to America. It is not the money. It

is the profound desire to rehabilitate themselves, to recover some

dignity as men, as producers, as workers, as creators from the spirit,

not only from the flesh. It is a profound desire to get away from women

altogether, the terrible subjugation to sex, the phallic worship.

The company of actors in the little theatre was from a small town away

on the plain, beyond Brescia. The curtain rose, everybody was still,

with that profound, naïve attention which children give. And after a few

minutes I realized that _I Spettri_ was Ibsen's _Ghosts_. The peasants

and fishermen of the Garda, even the rows of ungovernable children, sat

absorbed in watching as the Norwegian drama unfolded itself.

The actors are peasants. The leader is the son of a peasant proprietor.

He is qualified as a chemist, but is unsettled, vagrant, prefers

play-acting. The Signer Pietro di Paoli shrugs his shoulders and

apologizes for their vulgar accent. It is all the same to me. I am

trying to get myself to rights with the play, which I have just lately

seen in Munich, perfectly produced and detestable.

It was such a change from the hard, ethical, slightly mechanized

characters in the German play, which was as perfect an interpretation as

I can imagine, to the rather pathetic notion of the Italian peasants,

that I had to wait to adjust myself.

The mother was a pleasant, comfortable woman harassed by something, she

did not quite know what. The pastor was a ginger-haired caricature

imitated from the northern stage, quite a lay figure. The peasants never

laughed, they watched solemnly and absorbedly like children. The servant

was just a slim, pert, forward hussy, much too flagrant. And then the

son, the actor-manager: he was a dark, ruddy man, broad and thick-set,

evidently of peasant origin, but with some education now; he was the

important figure, the play was his.

And he was strangely disturbing. Dark, ruddy, and powerful, he could not

be the blighted son of 'Ghosts', the hectic, unsound, northern issue of

a diseased father. His flashy Italian passion for his half-sister was

real enough to make one uncomfortable: something he wanted and would

have in spite of his own soul, something which fundamentally he did

not want.

It was this contradiction within the man that made the play so

interesting. A robust, vigorous man of thirty-eight, flaunting and

florid as a rather successful Italian can be, there was yet a secret

sickness which oppressed him. But it was no taint in the blood, it was

rather a kind of debility in the soul. That which he wanted and would

have, the sensual excitement, in his soul he did not want it, no, not at

all. And yet he must act from his physical desires, his physical will.

His true being, his real self, was impotent. In his soul he was

dependent, forlorn. He was childish and dependent on the mother. To hear

him say, '_Grazia, mamma!_' would have tormented the mother-soul in any

woman living. Such a child crying in the night! And for what?

For he was hot-blooded, healthy, almost in his prime, and free as a man

can be in his circumstances. He had his own way, he admitted no

thwarting. He governed his circumstances pretty much, coming to our

village with his little company, playing the plays he chose himself. And

yet, that which he would have he did not vitally want, it was only a

sort of inflamed obstinacy that made him so insistent, in the masculine

way. He was not going to be governed by women, he was not going to be

dictated to in the least by any one. And this because he was beaten by

his own flesh.

His real man's soul, the soul that goes forth and builds up a new world

out of the void, was ineffectual. It could only revert to the senses.

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