David Herbert Lawrence

was waiting on the doorstep to come in.

"Will you come in?" said Alvina. "Father is in."

"Yes, I don't mind," he said, pleased. He mounted the steps, still

holding his bunch of white stocks.

James Houghton screwed round in his chair and peered over his

spectacles to see who was coming.

"Father," said Alvina, "you know Mr. Witham, don't you?"

James Houghton half rose. He still peered over his glasses at the

intruder.

"Well--I do by sight. How do you do?"

He held out his frail hand.

Albert held back, with the flowers in his own hand, and giving his

broad, pleased, pale-gleaming smile from father to daughter, he

said:

"What am I to do with these? Will you accept them, Miss Houghton?"

He stared at her with shining, pallid smiling eyes.

"Are they for me?" she said, with false brightness. "Thank you."

James Houghton looked over the top of his spectacles, searchingly,

at the flowers, as if they had been a bunch of white and

sharp-toothed ferrets. Then he looked as suspiciously at the hand

which Albert at last extended to him. He shook it slightly, and

said:

"Take a seat."

"I'm afraid I'm disturbing you in your reading," said Albert, still

having the drawn, excited smile on his face.

"Well--" said James Houghton. "The light is fading."

Alvina came in with the flowers in a jar. She set them on the table.

"Haven't they a lovely scent?" she said.

"Do you think so?" he replied, again with the excited smile. There

was a pause. Albert, rather embarrassed, reached forward, saying:

"May I see what you're reading!" And he turned over the book.

"'Tommy and Grizel!' Oh yes! What do you think of it?"

"Well," said James, "I am only in the beginning."

"I think it's interesting, myself," said Albert, "as a study of a

man who can't get away from himself. You meet a lot of people like

that. What I wonder is why they find it such a drawback."

"Find what a drawback?" asked James.

"Not being able to get away from themselves. That

self-consciousness. It hampers them, and interferes with their power

of action. Now I wonder why self-consciousness should hinder a man

in his action? Why does it cause misgiving? I think I'm

self-conscious, but I don't think I have so many misgivings. I don't

see that they're necessary."

"Certainly I think Tommy is a weak character. I believe he's a

despicable character," said James.

"No, I don't know so much about that," said Albert. "I shouldn't say

weak, exactly. He's only weak in one direction. No, what I wonder is

why he feels guilty. If you feel self-conscious, there's no need to

feel guilty about it, is there?"

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