David Herbert Lawrence

effort. And Alvina quickly would attend on her, bring her tea and

take away her music, try to make everything smooth. And continually

the young woman exhorted the elder to work less, to give up her

pupils. But Miss Frost answered quickly, nervously:

"When I don't work I shan't live."

"But why--?" came the long query from Alvina. And in her

expostulation there was a touch of mockery for such a creed.

Miss Frost did not answer. Her face took on a greyish tinge.

In these days Alvina struck up an odd friendship with Miss Pinnegar,

after so many years of opposition. She felt herself more in sympathy

with Miss Pinnegar--it was so easy to get on with her, she left so

much unsaid. What was left unsaid mattered more to Alvina now than

anything that was expressed. She began to hate outspokenness and

direct speaking-forth of the whole mind. It nauseated her. She

wanted tacit admission of difference, not open, wholehearted

communication. And Miss Pinnegar made this admission all along. She

never made you feel for an instant that she was one with you. She

was never even near. She kept quietly on her own ground, and left

you on yours. And across the space came her quiet commonplaces--but

fraught with space.

With Miss Frost all was openness, explicit and downright. Not that

Miss Frost trespassed. She was far more well-bred than Miss

Pinnegar. But her very breeding had that Protestant, northern

quality which assumes that we have all the same high standards,

really, and all the same divine nature, intrinsically. It is a fine

assumption. But willy-nilly, it sickened Alvina at this time.

She preferred Miss Pinnegar, and admired Miss Pinnegar's humble

wisdom with a new admiration. The two were talking of Dr. Headley,

who, they read in the newspaper, had disgraced himself finally.

"I suppose," said Miss Pinnegar, "it takes his sort to make all

sorts."

Such bits of homely wisdom were like relief from cramp and pain, to

Alvina. "It takes his sort to make all sorts." It took her sort too.

And it took her father's sort--as well as her mother's and Miss

Frost's. It took every sort to make all sorts. Why have standards

and a regulation pattern? Why have a human criterion? There's the

point! Why, in the name of all the free heavens, have human

criteria? Why? Simply for bullying and narrowness.

Alvina felt at her ease with Miss Pinnegar. The two women talked

away to one another, in their quiet moments: and slipped apart like

conspirators when Miss Frost came in: as if there was something to

be ashamed of. If there was, heaven knows what it might have been,

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