David Herbert Lawrence

unconsciously, but systematically frustrated. All this scheming for

selling out and making reservations and hanging on and fixing prices

and getting private bids for Manchester House and for the Endeavour,

the excitement of forming a Limited Company to run the Endeavour, of

seeing a lawyer about the sale of Manchester House and the

auctioneer about the sale of the furniture, of receiving men who

wanted to pick up the machines upstairs cheap, and of keeping

everything dangling, deciding nothing, putting everything off till

she had seen somebody else, this for the moment fascinated her, went

to her head. It was not until the second week had passed that her

excitement began to merge into irritation, and not until the third

week had gone by that she began to feel herself entangled in an

asphyxiating web of indecision, and her heart began to sing because

Ciccio had never turned up. Now she would have given anything to see

the Natcha-Kee-Tawaras again. But she did not know where they were.

Now she began to loathe the excitement of her property: doubtfully

hers, every stick of it. Now she would give anything to get away

from Woodhouse, from the horrible buzz and entanglement of her

sordid affairs. Now again her wild recklessness came over her.

She suddenly said she was going away somewhere: she would not say

where. She cashed all the money she could: a hundred-and-twenty-five

pounds. She took the train to Cheshire, to the last address of the

Natcha-Kee-Tawaras: she followed them to Stockport: and back to

Chinley: and there she was stuck for the night. Next day she dashed

back almost to Woodhouse, and swerved round to Sheffield. There, in

that black town, thank heaven, she saw their announcement on the

wall. She took a taxi to their theatre, and then on to their

lodgings. The first thing she saw was Louis, in his shirt sleeves,

on the landing above.

She laughed with excitement and pleasure. She seemed another woman.

Madame looked up, almost annoyed, when she entered.

"I couldn't keep away from you, Madame," she cried.

"Evidently," said Madame.

Madame was darning socks for the young men. She was a wonderful

mother for them, sewed for them, cooked for them, looked after them

most carefully. Not many minutes was Madame idle.

"Do you mind?" said Alvina.

Madame darned for some moments without answering.

"And how is everything at Woodhouse?" she asked.

"I couldn't bear it any longer. I couldn't bear it. So I collected

all the money I could, and ran away. Nobody knows where I am."

Madame looked up with bright, black, censorious eyes, at the flushed

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