David Herbert Lawrence

Soon there was a heap of twisted black pages, all that remained of the

file of scented letters, except that Paul had thirty or forty pretty

tickets from the corners of the notepaper--swallows and forget-me-nots

and ivy sprays. And William went to London, to start a new life.

CHAPTER IV

THE YOUNG LIFE OF PAUL

PAUL would be built like his mother, slightly and rather small. His fair

hair went reddish, and then dark brown; his eyes were grey. He was a

pale, quiet child, with eyes that seemed to listen, and with a full,

dropping underlip.

As a rule he seemed old for his years. He was so conscious of what other

people felt, particularly his mother. When she fretted he understood,

and could have no peace. His soul seemed always attentive to her.

As he grew older he became stronger. William was too far removed from

him to accept him as a companion. So the smaller boy belonged at first

almost entirely to Annie. She was a tomboy and a "flybie-skybie", as her

mother called her. But she was intensely fond of her second brother. So

Paul was towed round at the heels of Annie, sharing her game. She raced

wildly at lerky with the other young wild-cats of the Bottoms. And

always Paul flew beside her, living her share of the game, having as

yet no part of his own. He was quiet and not noticeable. But his sister

adored him. He always seemed to care for things if she wanted him to.

She had a big doll of which she was fearfully proud, though not so fond.

So she laid the doll on the sofa, and covered it with an antimacassar,

to sleep. Then she forgot it. Meantime Paul must practise jumping off

the sofa arm. So he jumped crash into the face of the hidden doll.

Annie rushed up, uttered a loud wail, and sat down to weep a dirge. Paul

remained quite still.

"You couldn't tell it was there, mother; you couldn't tell it was

there," he repeated over and over. So long as Annie wept for the doll

he sat helpless with misery. Her grief wore itself out. She forgave

her brother--he was so much upset. But a day or two afterwards she was

shocked.

"Let's make a sacrifice of Arabella," he said. "Let's burn her."

She was horrified, yet rather fascinated. She wanted to see what the boy

would do. He made an altar of bricks, pulled some of the shavings out of

Arabella's body, put the waxen fragments into the hollow face, poured

on a little paraffin, and set the whole thing alight. He watched with

wicked satisfaction the drops of wax melt off the broken forehead of

Arabella, and drop like sweat into the flame. So long as the stupid big

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