David Herbert Lawrence

she merely smiled to herself. Then she scolded him sharply.

"Goodness, man, don't be so lachrymose."

That wounded him slightly, but still he continued to feign sickness.

"I wouldn't be such a mardy baby," said the wife shortly.

Then he was indignant, and cursed under his breath, like a boy. He was

forced to resume a normal tone, and to cease to whine.

Nevertheless, there was a state of peace in the house for some time.

Mrs. Morel was more tolerant of him, and he, depending on her almost

like a child, was rather happy. Neither knew that she was more tolerant

because she loved him less. Up till this time, in spite of all, he had

been her husband and her man. She had felt that, more or less, what he

did to himself he did to her. Her living depended on him. There were

many, many stages in the ebbing of her love for him, but it was always

ebbing.

Now, with the birth of this third baby, her self no longer set towards

him, helplessly, but was like a tide that scarcely rose, standing off

from him. After this she scarcely desired him. And, standing more aloof

from him, not feeling him so much part of herself, but merely part of

her circumstances, she did not mind so much what he did, could leave him

alone.

There was the halt, the wistfulness about the ensuing year, which

is like autumn in a man's life. His wife was casting him off, half

regretfully, but relentlessly; casting him off and turning now for love

and life to the children. Henceforward he was more or less a husk. And

he himself acquiesced, as so many men do, yielding their place to their

children.

During his recuperation, when it was really over between them, both made

an effort to come back somewhat to the old relationship of the first

months of their marriage. He sat at home and, when the children were in

bed, and she was sewing--she did all her sewing by hand, made all shirts

and children's clothing--he would read to her from the newspaper, slowly

pronouncing and delivering the words like a man pitching quoits. Often

she hurried him on, giving him a phrase in anticipation. And then he

took her words humbly.

The silences between them were peculiar. There would be the swift,

slight "cluck" of her needle, the sharp "pop" of his lips as he let out

the smoke, the warmth, the sizzle on the bars as he spat in the fire.

Then her thoughts turned to William. Already he was getting a big boy.

Already he was top of the class, and the master said he was the smartest

lad in the school. She saw him a man, young, full of vigour, making the

world glow again for her.

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